I've decided to try something. To be silent. No talking, to communicate through movement, body language and facial expressions. It may seem strange but I need to do something like this. I get stressed out very easily and when I get stressed out I get anxious, irritated and angry. It feels like I am this way ALL the time. I don't like how I am when I am like this.
I yell and scream.
I'm not calm, I'm not at peace.
I'm hoping that silence will give me a chance to learn how to control my reaction to those triggers that make me angry. Because by not yelling and screaming I can learn to do it another way.
I've been silent for about an hour now. I am finding it hard....I have a tightness in my chest and throat. I'm freaking out, it's weird.....panicky.